GBS+

I feel overwhelmed, and generally in a crap mood. Natalie and I are both fine, but I found out today that I tested positive for Group B Strep. Perhaps a "normal" pregnant woman would simply interpret this finding to mean that she'd be receiving antibiotics during labor and go on about her merry way, assuming everything would be fine, but I find it pretty hard to gloss over the truth that GBS is a leading cause of infant death, rare though it may be. Stats are pretty much lost on me, given previous experience.

To top it all off, my OB is on vacation for the next two weeks, which feels pretty disconcerting. The nurse practitioner spoke to another doctor in the practice today, who felt strongly that they wouldn't induce prior to 39 weeks, but if we were uncomfortable with that decision, they'd move it up if we scheduled an amnio to test for lung maturity before hand. They went ahead and scheduled me for July 26--what's the point? I think my body can do better than that on its own. And the amnio thing frustrates me--is it really necessary after 37 weeks, at which point I'll be considered full term?

Reality or not, I feel like everyone has disappeared and isn't taking my concerns seriously. When I spoke to the NP, I broke down and told her how freaked out I was about the GBS, after already experiencing one infant death. She was kind, but indicated that she was surprised that I was concerned about GBS, stating how common it was, etc. She must be reading from something different than what I read on the CDC website, and I felt too beaten down to argue with her. DH is set on getting an induction date settled, and wants us to go all New York high maintenance next week so we get some results. To complicate matters even further, some of what I am reading says its best for GBS+ moms to avoid "unnecessary" interventions such as induction, artificial rupture of membranes, etc. which may increase the risk of passing the infection on to the baby. Ugh, this is too much. Can't I get a break?